Saturday, February 02, 2008

i have this realisation while shopping today regarding WHY I AM I JC STUDENT. i'm glad i didnt choose a poly because i have to think of what to wear everyday and i wouldnt know what else to wear. plus, being super picky about every single thing, i am sure that i wont get to buy clothes. up till now, my CNY shopping trip had resulted in NOTHING. i didnt manage to buy even a single top. how pathetic can i get right? tsk. my mother's so going to kill me and nag at me.

yesterday, i was feeling quite relaxed after rushing out everything on Thursday. because of that mentality, i slept early, went home late, and didnt do my History essay thinking that 'oh i have a JC2 test slot tomorrow to finish it' and went to bed. guess what? early in the morning, just when i took out the bloody piece of paper, Aminah wants to have lessons with us. i was like !#$@$^%^!#%@^@$^!@#$@ all the way. seriously. she just announced it all of a sudden and expects us to respond to it. obviously we did. we cant oppose her, can we?

after that, i have to sacrifice my History lecture to finish my History essay and sacrifice my History lecture notes just because Nirms didnt have his. -.- i shouldnt have offered it to him but i did so oh well. next, the other class asked me why i didnt remind them about homework. first thing i said was ' i thought she told us during the last tutorial?'. i was thinking, am i your nanny or something that i must clean your shit for you after excretion?! hence i said, alright my fault so i asked them for their numbers so that i can REMIND them of all their work. Mrs Low said i shouldnt be the one reminding them. it's not an easy job to be a History rep. sacrificing your notes and your messages. RIGHT. the next time they're going to grumble is about collection of money. I DO PAY THE FUND AS WELL HELLO. it's not like i DONT. those are notes that you're supposed to get for lectures and all. dont complain and just pay since we're broke. argh!

it ended with the heavy rain and it definitely sucks. spoilt my day and i became really bitchy and critical. somehow, i miss being a total bitch as my classmates are alright. so when Duck and i went to NYNY for her desert, this woman came to me and told me no outside food allowed. i was drinking Coke from Subway and asked her 'what if i dont drink?!'. she was like 'er.. why dont i keep it for you?'. if i'm being a total bitch, i'll just tell her why cant i keep it with me. TSK. next, when i went to the toilet, this stupid sickening china woman cut the queue and went into the dirty toilet. i just stared at her with my piercing scary look and she didnt go in because it's dirty. SERVES HER RIGHT. if she wants to cut the damn queue, go back to china. i dont think they care. the next thing, this guy approached us to do some survey/sell flag/nonsense. it's common at AMK hub. i just said sorry and went off. repeated myself twice with a pissed tone. i should have said 'cant you see i'm busy walking?!' damn. all these things irritates me to the core. argh! i miss being a bitch to unleash my angst for the week.

hence i vented it out on Cheng En. i just hate it when people tell me this and it became that. so annoying i swear. climbed the fucking stairs and you know i cant climb stairs. in the end we climbed down and went up after a while. isnt that so stupid?! i'm like carrying a bag that weighs a TONNE. i was so pissed that i just snapped at him. didnt even bother to listen to whatever he wants to say and dump him his birthday present. went up and sat there looking so listless while Platinum that dog comes jumping around me. i wonder where all her energy came from.

feeling all so dizzy and having a horrible migraine and feeling so disturbed by it. went to vomit twice and i vomitted out my double choc. cookie. -.- diarrhoea-ed once when i didnt even have dinner. fantastic isnt it? i'm not having a fever even though others say i have. i wish i have a fever and cant crawl out of bed. that way it'll be the only time that i can take a fucking MC. listless thanks to .... my life is sucked out by her. was so disturbed about all these vomitting and crap that i didnt even hear the prophetic message. all i want to do is GO HOME. nothing sinks in and i feel so tired. argh. i feel no purpose in travelling all the way to Jurong when i'm dizzy and shit happens to me.

transport was provided and i gave my DNA to Cheng En. it's precious because it might be the only thing that's valuable in me. -.- went home and watched tv and went to bed immediately. couldnt take it.

today, i declare the hatred for myself. shopped for the entire fucking day and nothing was bought and the word 'fuck' just kept popping out in my head when i went to Bugis St with Nat to look around. I HATE THAT PLACE BECAUSE IT'S SO CROWDED AND IT'S SO WARM IN THERE AND THE AIR IS DAMN POLLUTED AND I HATE THOSE CLOTHES HANGING AROUND THAT LOOKS SO LIANISH AND I CANT STAND THOSE TECHNO MUSIC BOOMING AROUND AND I'M HAVING A FUCKING MIGRAINE. period.

it's the first time i'm out with Jeslyn and it's great. went Little India with her at first to look for the shop. found it after walking a few streets and thread my eyebrows. the sound of the plucking of hair and all sounds cool and after that you can feel the numbing effect. Jeslyn did it too! she was so nervous but she did it still. went off to Bugis and had dinner at NYDC. it's damn sinful and i had a beefy meal. totally awesome! went to shop around and Nat and i didnt get anything while Jeslyn benefitted the most. she bought her new year stuff already while we are still empty handed. she went off after that so we went to Bugis St and that's where the nightmare begins. i began to lose ALL interest in shopping and got rather irritated and just wanted to go home and rot. now i begin to appreciate the art of rotting at home. took 80 home and the ride was fucking cold and long. almost died in there without a sweater.

here i am. waiting for Monster's return so that i can challenge that damn song in his PSP. didnt manage to complete it while taking the train down.

if i'm not Aminah's student, i will become her best friend. she's about my height and she's all so critical and angsty, just like me. i shall aim to become like her and stay single. i am critical and bitchy too so oh well.

i miss being an awesome bitch. DARYN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! miss bitching with him.

unquiet right now.